Monthly Archives: July 2014

Adrift but not alone – a moment to reflect


So it struck me that there is going to be an apparent ‘gap’ of 12 years between the recording of the words in my last post and those in my next – and it seemed strange not to briefly explain why. The simple explanation is that working with spirit doesn’t and shouldn’t mean that our human life gets put on hold. Stuff happens to us and it’s meant to – that’s what we’re here for! 

By 2001 my writing had taken a somewhat different turn and spirit were encouraging me in the writing of a book (more of which later). Meanwhile, work with my group of like-minded spiritual adventurers continued apace and it had a profound affect on my day to day life.  I found myself attempting things I would never have dared before and I was gaining a deeper understanding of the patterns and relationships in my current life. It sounds serious and much of it was, but the years 2001-2006 also contained some of the funniest, most inspiring and joyful experiences of my life.

But significant work inevitably drives significant change and, between 2004 and 2012 I navigated most of the ‘major life experiences’ learned people list as those that present us with the greatest challenges. Throughout it all, I knew my guides were there; I knew spirit was supporting me but I no longer had a group to practice with and I did not yet possess the knowledge or the discipline to do the work on my own. I felt adrift but not alone.

In the middle of all that, I connected briefly with another group and this poem, given out at (as it turned out) the first of a very few meetings, really helped me to ‘let go’:

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.

When you figure out which one it is,

you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON,

it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty;

to provide you with guidance and support;

to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend, and they are.

They are there for the reason you need them to be.

Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,

this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away.

Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.

What we must realise is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.

The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.

Some people come into your life for a SEASON,

because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.

They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.

They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.

Believe it. It is real. But only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons;

things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person,

and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

— Unknown


Travels in space and time


By August 2000 a group of us had gathered into what I now know was a development circle. None of us realised that, though – we were just a small group of friends and colleagues, exploring the various ways we seemed to be able to connect to spirit. It was an amazing adventure and we threw ourselves into it headlong. How fortunate that we had wise guides looking after us!

One of the things I discovered I could sometimes do, aside from the writing, was to let spirit speak through me – and they often overshadowed me while I was doing it. The others in the group would see my appearance change, depending on which of our guides was coming through.

Here’s an excerpt from one of those early sessions. One of the other participants had just been talking about experiences he occasionally had in meditation and in dreams, where he seemed to travel through space. He’d also just witnessed, for the first time, my features change, morphing from one appearance to another and then to pure light rather than a face. (I’ve used P1/P2 to protect participants’ privacy. The names mentioned are those of two of my spirit guides.)

 Travels in space and time – excerpt from a group session 24 August 2000

Tybran/Louise: P1 is ready to understand. How you and I – how we all –  appear is transient. We can all travel to many places. Places where we are, where we have been, where we will be. P1 has done this before but only to visit people he has known or known of. But this is unlimited. You need only trust yourselves. Trust that the way you seem to travel is real. People who die do not stay in some twilight world. They move on. The places they move on to are as real as where they were and where you are now. You have to understand there is no now. Everything, everyone you are, you have been, you will ever be, is now. If you let go of the ties to how you think and feel in the now, you can be everywhere, in all the worlds you perceive. You can use the knowledge you have of the past and the future. P1 wonders where he may travel, yet he has travelled there already – a thousand times. He needs only recall the memory, to recall it as a present truth.

P1: What is my purpose?

Tybran/Louise: A very big question. You are a part of a much greater you. You are not aware of them. You need only know that if you follow your heart, you will be as you were meant to be this time. It is not prohibited to be happy. In doing what you heart draws you to do, you can also achieve your purpose, in this life, in this moment. There is no bigger quest than to be true to yourself.

P1: Where (should I travel to) next?

Tybran/Louise: To your heart, to where you dreamed you would be. To where you once believed you dared not go. If you live your lives as they were meant to be lived – not idly, not with constraint, but with joy, with purpose, with self-belief – you can fly; you can spiral upward, until you leave behind what you have thought of as home. Free yourself of these constraints and you will begin to see what we are capable of together. You are not alone. You have never been alone. And now that you know that we are here, you will never be alone again. We are here when you need us.

P1: What advice would you give me about the chastisement my (late) grandmother has given me?

Soledad/Louise: We are not only Tybran. We are Soledad, too. Your grandmother – she is close to you. She means well. She wishes to help you. She is passing through one of the many layers we all pass through. She lingers, wishing to help you, not wishing to embark on another life until she fulfils her purpose to help you. This is fine. It is not hurting her or you. It is transitory. You will move on; she will move on. Listen and talk to her – as much for her as for you. Never forget, those who move beyond the veil need your help as much as you need theirs. Listen to your grandmother. You will both move on when the time comes.

P2: What should the group of us be embarking on?

Soledad/Louise: The group will have energies the individuals do not possess. This power should be used for the greater good. Bring negativity and you create evil.  Bring positivity and you create love. Love is undervalued and underestimated. If you do not believe you have the power, you will always be afraid. Come when you are ready, when you are positive, and the power is yours. We will help and advise you. We will not let you over-extend your abilities, either through ignorance or force of will. We are stronger and wiser than you but only through practice. We are the same but we have travelled further. Listen, believe – we are the same.

Work but do not toil. When you feel there is an energy behind everything you do, everything you dream of, this is work but not toil. Discipline, yes – toil, no. Action must be taken, beliefs must be upheld. Be ready: listen, observe, prepare, know yourself. Then you will be ready. Know that you are not alone, in your world or in ours. None of you is alone.




For many months in 2000 – my first year writing with spirit – all the words seemed personal; support and advice for me that was hugely welcome but of no interest to anyone else. 

Then, on 16 July 2000, Jy – who had emerged as the guide who was principally working with me to assist my writing – wrote this piece with me about the role of spirit guides.

It’s the first piece of my writing with spirit that I felt might apply to us all – so it’s the first piece I want to share here.

From Jy, Sunday 16th July 2000

We are the watermark on your life’s leaf.

No matter how few, or how many words are written upon the page, we are there, visible.  We have always, and will always, be there.  But you must look upon this page, your life, closely and carefully, to see us.  Held at one angle, we are invisible and insignificant.  Held at another, we are plain and deeply engrained – a mark of the quality of the canvas upon which your life’s story is written.

We are the sometimes invisible – but indivisible – symbol of the unity that is all life.  We are one with you, whether you see or feel or touch our presence or no.  Yet, once you have seen us, heard us, known us, how much richer the tapestry?  How much surer the knowledge that, as the page of this life is turned, we will still be there, upon the next page and the next.

We are your soul’s partners, ever present in the never-ending storybook of your existence.

This is not given as pretty words upon a page – to be admired and then forgotten – but rather so that you may hear and see and believe.  Your story still unfolds and may contain many riches.  The story of the pauper, the lonely hermit and the happiest man may all have begun with the same words – but how different their endings.  Perhaps one of them chanced upon the watermark on his page – perhaps he did not.  But every chance to change the story for the better must be taken, must it not?  We are not here to lecture, only to be heard and to help you achieve what you most desire – if only you will let us.